The serenity of the night, with the company of some emotion-invoking songs, brought me into a state of blankness and peace. To be exact, I felt like a wandering soul drifting around aimlessly these 3 days. I can't even focus on the things that I like, or liked, to do and I don't even know where I should start to regain consciousness. It just seemed like I am having a third-person view of myself, having no control of the character, just like a dream; a weird and peculiar dream.
I just had a friend whom I knew in ntu who had suicided, with unknown reason and i don't feel nice enquiring around either. Knowing the reason behind it serves no purpose anymore, as the fact is that the tragedy had already occurred. It's this time that I feel that life's so unpredictable and fragile. The previous conversation that you spoke to a certain person might just be the last one, and the last time you saw that person might be the final time too. So why do people still fight with each other, over anything and everything? Will it only stop when only the person's dead, and then regretting on what you have/have not done with him/her when he/she is still alive? Go on, find your friends and your loved ones and tell them how much they mean to you before everything's too late. Spend more time with those whom you treasure most, as money can be earned, but not time.
And I sincerely believe that I can find the light at the end of the tunnel, no matter how long it is. =)
Rest in peace, Junru, my friend.
